I put my trust in you. That's all you need to know. You actually knew, yet you disregarded it. You made me have a negative feeling in myself, and you knew you did. The problem? You didn't know what that feeling was...... You thought you were conjuring fear I guess. You thought wrong. Really wrong. What had sparked in me, was a fit of anger I never knew before. You don't know this. Your knowledge, so thin, shall be your downfall. Your disability to read others, will put you in an extremely disadvantageous position. I yearn for your blood to spill by my hand, but that would land me in lots of trouble, and, it would spill 10 fold anyway, in a place you strongly believe in......
You, well, it was never your fault. In fact, I believe you were helping me unknowingly. But the success rate of your assistance was only half, and you led me to worse trouble. Still, it is not your fault, and I shall never blame you for it. You gave off so much energy, and I was attracted, yet, there was some barrier that would separate me from you. As time passed, haha, your energies grew stronger, and I find myself helplessly banging into the barrier. Well, I wish you all the best anyway......
My other blog, I posted about best friends, and true friends. It is really hard to tell. In fact, they are never forever true, or maybe even never were true. Previously, I had identified 2, but 1 has proven me wrong, which led to me doubting the other. In short? I have no one left. The most confusing time in my life, where I am truly lost, to the point of not even knowing what I'm feeling, and I realise I have no one. I used to laugh at my life for being such a comedy, but its no longer funny. My life is comprised of false joy and pre-destined sorrow. Yet, I don't resign to fate, which makes my existence even worse.
Anyone who even sees this, please......
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