Negative Aura

The worst of the worst, "he" came out when I was not expecting him at all. Damaged the shit out of me, and again, I feel lost.

Stuck at home to idle. Thoughts bounced all over. Somehow, to all that I never wanted to know, or rather, remember. All down to one point. Him. So sad, I had to run, and now, even the run went wrong. Full of anger, self resent, self despise, inferiority, basically, full of all the shit in the past that I fought off one by one in the past. I knew they would be back, but not all at once, gee......

Lost is a better word to describe actually. This feeling is so...... mixed.