Heh.

My life is just bullshit. People who lost a limb, contracted a terminal disease or even lose a loved one have something to cry about. For everything I experience, crying is just pathetic. But its just that I go through so much... Going to cancel the so called "party". Just won't work out. I know it. I am pretty damn sure I am not setting goals that are too high for myself. Do I not deserve to truly enjoy a bit of life? I just don't know how to get my life back, how to amend what I've done, how to break out of this cycle of sorrow... Am I getting what I deserve? I am clear what I should have done and what I shouldn't have... I tell people I'm numb to sadness already... but that was never true... Who shall I discuss about my sickening life with? I don't know...