A letter

I'm Jun Teck, a boy from Singapore, 15 this year. Life isn't going too

smoothly for me, nor my peers. That seems normal, but, what I face is

somewhat different from them. They all seem so caught up with academics

that they don't really see the big picture, which is how I see things. (I think?)

Academics are a problem. My friends seem to be working hard just to please

their parents, but I do so to improve myself. I always have been the top few

in class, and everyone says I'm doing well, but I always feel I am not. Especially

since I saw much potential in my earlier years, I always challenged myself to get

better. However, I constantly beat myself up at the fact that I am not doing as

well as I should be, and I am aware of that, but I just won't stop.

One problem leads to others though. My friends have been calling me a hypocrite,

a bastard, trying to make them feel bad about their grades. As such, they drift

further and further away, and I am slowly finding myself alone. I look for new

friends, but they all seem to have a dislike towards me. Even my family, facing

problem after problem, seem to hate me. I barely have anyone to talk to now.

Well, its good to know I have you guys now :)

These few days, I think to myself, what will I do with my life. Then I see that

there is nothing much I can do, so I went to look for my purpose. The search

got more and more frustrating, and I feel a sense of helplessness simply

overwhelming me.

This was a letter I wrote to a great guy named Vishen, creater of an awesome group to help others with personal growth. This is the first time I compiled so many thoughts into one writing :P

AND HOMEWORK ARGH. HAVENT STARTED EVEN NOW.