Yea. I was first in class last term. Yay? I don't think so...... I'd say, it was pure luck. I more or less accepted the fact I'm not smart, which means I shouldn't have been first in class. First in class should go to a closet mugger, maybe Wilson? Not me...... So this term, people got high expectations of me, and since I did not even deserve first, those expectations, WAY too high. Also, pride chews in, making me want to fulfill all expectations of others. Screwed pride......
Yea. I have accepted the fact that I'm not smart. But surrounded by smart asses from the past? Gosh, I was among them then! Dropping till this state...... Speechless. Screwed with pride the most.
Yea. Smart asses from the past, dumb people from the present. Not just dumb people, people with attitudes so shitty they make me think deeply. If one doesn't mug, he/she must at least learn at any pace. They? They don't even want to learn. Absolutely not like a student. And this is but one kind of people who irritate me. The next kind, disgusts me. The freaking immature, freaking selfish, freaking ignorant. I know 2 people (so far, I'm sure there are more), all 3 combined. Every time see me point out he is better? Well, I don't get pissed. I laugh. Same number of subjects, just marginally better than me...... Go 3A laugh at me, well I got nothing to say. But now ar, you watch it...... CCA? Term 2, "Screw you la, you sure you can PS? Can even medic or not... You know they go run you must follow one leh......" I simply smiled. Term 3, look who's boss and who's subordinate...... And he doesn't even know why......
So in short, I don't really belong anywhere...... That feeling sucks......
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