Sister didn't get DSA approval. Damn sadded. Can't even bear to see the way she drowns herself in too much studies. It will just ruin her, in a different way from which I was ruined, but on the same thing......
Dad getting a job. Sounds great initially but, as more info was revealed, I didn't like it. At all. Firstly, he is going to work irregular hours for a not so reasonable amount of pay (to me). Secondly, it is in an environment he is DEFINITELY not suited for. And I'm not even sure how bad it is...... Lastly (selfish reasons), he won't send me to school anymore.
Changes in family, changes in friends too...... All becoming outstanding in what they do, and I, though truly happy for MOST OF them, am not really becoming better at all. One becomes more duty oriented, one excels in his skills, one growing into a fine gentleman (under my guidance :D), one a hardworking scholar, and one, a she, is everything they are...... (except the gentleman part)
Duties are important. But he devotes so much into his duties, he becomes less interact-able...... Perfectly normal, but selfishly, I don't like it......
When one excels in a certain skill, it is only because one has gone through long harsh hours of training till perfection. Also, nothing much to say, just a little jealousy maybe? Anyway, all I can do now is just work on my own skill.
From a retard into a gentleman, is one of the greatest changes that could occur in a man. I guided him along the way, but I myself do not feel I am doing well in this aspect......
And her, well, its a new one, gotten with the intention of pure motivation. Sadly, that does not seem to be the case anymore...... Her ravishing beauty and voice oh so soothing to my mind have mesmerized me, making me break away from my intentions. As with the previous, this one is also kind of "unattainable", but at least she really does push me to do better. Wait till the heartbreak part, its will just be the same pain again...... Also, to maintain this "good feeling", I have to do odd things that hurt me as well......
One more person I did not list down just now. This one is special. He himself, had a grand change in his life, but now, in my honest opinion, he neglects his other things, one of which being me. Being the nice and honest (and also gullible and trusting zzzzzz) person I am, I will just have to believe he is just still trying to adapt and give him time...... But how long? A week? A month? A year? But if I was wrong from the start......
Oh man, whataya want from me?
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