Ushering a new era ~

Fuck sorrow. Worthless emotion, does not feel good. Only through rage can one gain through happiness.

What's there to rage about? Well, everything I'd say. Ever stop to think why we feel sad? Its something we want that we can't get? Or a fact that we cannot accept? Worthless getting sad. Might as well show everyone how much it irks you, or simply accept the fact.

Remember, inferiority complex? Being different? Fuck them all. No point feeling inferior, its all an image projected in your mind. Different? Fuck yea, I used to worry, why I can't fit in. Answer was simple. I simply can't. Everywhere I go, everyone I meet, I bring misery to them. Tried ending my life to end their misery once, pathetic. I would bring more anguish to my loved ones wouldn't I? Since I have this "talent", might as well use it to afflict pain on my enemies. I mean, come on, am I to die because they made my life suck? Am I to bring the pain to my friends and family because some dogs just ruined my life?

Since I am this different, there isn't really a point fitting in. My friends will hate me too much eventually, and leave. So why struggle to hold on? Then, just last night, I realised. Friends are the most unreliable source of entertainment. One moment of joy for weeks of sorrow? Fuck that. I made everyone suffer, so they'd leave me earlier, but that one person I can't bear to hurt...... Even she has to leave, I know. But I can't speed up the process. Fucks our lives. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't hate her. I know she was an image of who I was in the past, but seriously?

Its hard for them to leave me, but once they do, they can feel happiness like they felt before meeting me. Once they're gone, I can focus fully on using my "talent" to make enemies of me and my friends suffer. Yes, I can never forget my friends, but they have to leave me. I will silently guard them as best as I can, and they won't even know shit. The dog who betrayed 3 years of my kindness is now suffering like never before. All thanks to me. I rejoice in his sorrow. I tried being nice to him, but every friend I introduced to him just gets flipped off. Dumb piece of shit doesn't blame himself for his fate. Worthless.......